For our talking circle Monday morning following the ceremony, I posed the question "what's next" brought into the Silverton memorial by Lois McKenzie, giving us food for thought and an important jumping off place with regard to our sharing as the talking stick was passed... where to take the important gifts and contributions David brought to each of our lives... and the work/play we carry forward from here. In Monday's circle, our stick was to go around twice with this as the question for the second pass, the first being a "present-moment" weather report. Our first round showed the deep longing in everyone's hearts to share and grieve, and it went the full 3 hours blocked out for it. That of course meant that the second round got eliminated and I posed the question for people to ask each other and witness the answers over lunch.
The note pasted below came in today from Linda Weber). She took the question to heart and sent her thoughts in for all to appreciate. Send yours in too if you feel led. In heart, Ananda
What's Next? by Linda Weber, Boulder
What’s next? I ask upon returning from the memorial in Yosemite. Resting in the grief of the moment, I am getting ready to join with my Boulder sangha for the local memorial celebration for David, which will be held on Saturday, September 12.
But my question is about the larger future, because to honor David and his work I must enter the rest of my life and work with even clearer intention and attention, and approach everything and everyone with strong and gentle heart and mind. I am aware of a most unbreakable bond between us and of the mostly wordless communication we had for 25 or so years. And now, too, there is communication, but I have to get used to the language, which is different with his passing.
My grief is my guide. Each morning it brings me to an inner confrontation with the reality of this time, and reminds me to be with the all of it. Sadness swirls and merges with deep respect and love. I bow. I vow. To reach for all that is possible in this lifetime and to surrender to the flow. To do this with my feet on the ground and my eyes and heart open to receive whatever instructions there are for me. I will do my best to carry on, holding all that is to come with gratitude for all that has been given.